[votemom]

yes we did. we went on trip one and fell in love and signed all the papers and flew home.

he was chosen by a russian family.

it was gut-wrenching and heart-breaking.

i never expected it and had not even prepared myself for the possibility, so it hit me especially hard.

i definitely SHOULD have prepared myself for the possibility. it still would have broken my heart, but perhaps i would have recovered more easily..? i dunno.

you can't let it stop you from moving forward though.
that would be like never getting pregnant for fear of a miscarriage.

any loss is so terribly sad and hard.

we DID recover with time. but a day rarely goes by that i do not think of him.