[Tina29]

I am new here and since i started thinking about going to school and found out i could get a scholorship just for being adopted i started asking questions to my amom. Now mind you she and i haven't always had the best relationship at all. I always thought that my father wanted to adopt me. Because she never really bonded with me and then the marriage fell apart and i never saw my dad again. Ever since the divorce her true feelings for me came out even moreso when she had bchildren of her own. I felt like cinderella no lie she even told me i was adopted in a mean way when i was young. Anyway i am not crying about it i just wanted to give some background on my question. When talking to her recently about obtaining proof i was adopted she told me she doesn't remember anything about it not even where she adopted me from. She knows it was human services but not what city. Anywho she then proceeds to tell me that i was not given up rather taken away because my "bipolar mother tried to kill me by suffocating me" My question is do i believe her or try to find out on my own if this is true? If it is what then? I never expected the fairy tale (only half true) but to find out that i don't know i just wish i knew the truth but am afraid to find out if that makes any sense