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Unfortunately, No one has a crystal ball and can see the future. I hope you know it is ok to grieve and to hurt. Each birth mom feels a piece of her heart is missing. Right or wrong there is no going back and changing. If you think back to why you placed your daughter at that time and point in your life it was what seemed right. No one ever talkes to soon to be birthparents about what they will go through. Some days all you feel like doing is crying but you know you are getting better at dealing with the lost the first day you make it half way through the day and realize you had a happy moment. Then feel guilty about it. I can tell you for me it has been 18 1/2 years and still a day doesn't go by that I don't think about my son. You know I am okay now. Most days when I think about him all I think about is the love I feel towards him. Remember let yourself grieve for her now, let yourself feel whatever you are feeling. Any feelings you are having are normal. And also ok. I wish I could take way your pain...but if there is anything I can do just let me know.
Trout
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