I have now been reunited with my biological
birth family for one year (November 25th) !!!
I have learned so much over the first year, and still
there are new family members to meet.. This family
is very huge! and very welcoming...
I have learned that I need to deal with the Anger
with my biological birth Mother... I went to NY
to visit with my two sisters and meet my brother, and
had a difficult time with being in the area.. NYC was
my B-mom's town, her turf.. A part or turf of her personal
life I was never invited to be a part of.. I managed to
walk right to the apartment building that she lived in
when she lived in NYC, and I have never been to NYC.
I need to get past this angry feeling that I have with her..
She moved on so quickly in life, and became so successful and
I will never know if she ever thought about me, and whats become of me.. IT WAS ALL AT MY EXPENSE.. She would have
never become the person she did, had it not been for me, and her adopting me out.. She moved on and made millions shortly after discarding me out of her life, and now she is gone (died in 1997) and I will never know her guilt or her pain.. All I know is her wealth after me.. This eats me up inside.. I will in turn get past it, but one year later - I am still angry...
I love my new family - they have welcomed me with open arms, and understand my pain and emotions I wrestle with..
Thanks
Cricket/Susie
