[MADjj]

i totally agree.. see i have been reading info on my bmom that i was given. i know that she was mentally ill, that my father claimed i wasn't his and that they were split up (later divorced) when i was born , and that she was also around 20yrs old. i was taken from my bmom for continued gross neglect, but i don't blame her. i too suffer from mentall illness, and many days i struggle just to get out of Bed!
The one thing that made me decide to look for her though, is that before i was given up for adoption, she tried to get me back - the judge was going to do it, since she had gotten help and changed quite a bit, but she never showed up to court.. i kinda want to know why? If my mom went thru so much to try to get me back why didn't she come to court.
I also have pictures of my bmom and my bdad, and i really think I look like him, no matter what he thinks.... same blue eyes blond hair and personallity- HUGE GRIN ON HIS FACE!!! Unfortunately i seem to have inherited more of my bmom's bad characteristics - weight... mentall ilness.. etc i also believe i got my bad vision from my bdad... he's legally blind now. i dont expect anything from a reunion, i just wish for some answers, and some closure.. I don't blame anyone for anything, i just want an end to my search!.