poor you Stacy...you are having a rough spell aren't you?! Suicide is SO tough...a friend of my husband's committed suicide while we were all in college and that was really hard and wierd...fortunately for us, we weren't very close friends, so it didn't hit us quite as hard as it could have, but still, it was tough and the memorial service was really hard. I don't envy you today. It is so hard for us, with healthy minds, to understand suicide...I think people's minds just get so sick that they can't see any way out of their pain...it is so sad. I thank God that my mind is clear and he has given me joy...I don't know what your beliefs are, but I have been thinking a lot lately about a bible verse that I think sums me up just right "I will praise the Lord for He has dealt bountifully with me." I just feel so blessed...and it is in tough times like you are going through, and trust me, before Kaden was born we had some pretty tough spots ourselves, where I didn't know what else to do, I just had to trust that God had a plan. And now that I see His plan completed and this little boy asleep in his crib beside me that I can tell you - He has dealt bountifully with me.
Based on your great interview with Erin's SW, I can only assume that you will make that same impression on the SW of YOUR child...I anxiously await that day - when you can share in the adoptive mom's joy!
Bless you today! Hope you make it alright through that funeral. and have a Happy Canadian Thanksgiving! ha! We still have to wait 1 1/2 months for ours!
