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Stacy,
Well, I guess life does just keep moving along whether we want it to sometimes or not, doesn't it?! I have had plenty of mornings just like you describe...can't hardly will myself to get up and get moving. I guess that is what depression is like, only with me it comes and goes pretty easily (you know something hard happening and so I feel sad for a couple of days or a week or something) - I feel such empathy for those who are actually clinically depressed and don't have the joy like I do of knowing that "this too shall pass."
Any idea where you and your DH will go from here? Were there any other profiles at all that appealed to you? Any younger children perhaps, that haven't been through as much as that poor, sweet girl? I am hoping that something comes up for you soon.
Cathy,
I so appreciate your positive tone! I only hope to be as strong and positive when we go into our next adoption! I find hope in you that the second will be less stressful than the first...I just wasn't sure I could do that again! It wasn't that our situation wasn't wonderful because it was, but the stress of it all still just eats you alive! I am not ready to do it all again...all those what-ifs! In our case, the bmom was wonderful but the bfather was in the picture and threatening and always at the edge of causing a problem, but never quite caring enough to actually do it - it was nerve racking...we knew that Christ had a plan and that no one could ruin His will, but still, this bfather was pretty stressful calling our house often and we wondered up until the week before Kaden was born that he could file for paternity, etc...anyway, my point is that although I hardly think of any of that now that I have this wonderful boy in my arms, I guess I am still a little gun shy to go through the emotional roller coaster again, so your steadfastness is encouraging to me. I just can't imagine that God will have another child out there that is so obviously meant to be ours...isn't it a faith builder? It sure was for us.
Thanks both of you for sharing...it is fun to be kept posted.
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