[Noelle85]

I have been looking for my birthmother for a long time, but had no luck. I've read the non-identifying information about her and it seems we have a lot in common. We both have brown hair, brown eyes, approx. same height and weight (not including her pregnancy weight. I have been dying to meet her.

Recently, my adoptive mother found a card that had the Adoption Agencies name and number on it. The agency had moved, but after a long search I located the agency and called them up. Who should pick up but Mrs. Betty, the lady who handle my adoption.

She told me everything she could remember and has agreed to help me. Since I will be 18 in one week, she has agreed to help me. She is going to contact the courts who have my records to find out my birthmother's name and the address she lived at 18 years ago when I was born. She is going to locate my birthmother and see if she is willing to have contact with me.

I am scared, because I don't know weather or not she will be willing to talk to me. I am so close, but so far at the same time. She was 15 when I was born and in the 10th grade. What if she doesn't want to have contact with me?? What if she just wants to forget I ever happened?

After all this time, this is IT. Either she wants to contact me or she doesn't. If she doesn't, the agency won't tell me anything. If she does, I finally get to meet the family I've been searching for for so long.

Can you see why I'm scared? Advise? Suggestions? Please, tell me what you think!!

~Noelle~
~Scared in Mississippi~