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Originally Posted By Karen

well, i guess I found a place with people that fell like I do,I found my birth mother when I was 33,she lived 3 hours away and came to visit right away,she was stand offish a glass half empty kind of person.she brought me geneology info and told me my fahters name and I didnt speak to her for 2 years.she clearly stated when I called her on my birthday that she didnt want anything to do with me.why what was wrong with me ,also I have my beloved Jaime 16 a granduaghter any one would be proud to call theirs,what ,after I had finally found her could ever keep us apart?I never dreamed that the amswer would be the woman herself by her own choice.I felt cheated oh sure before I found her I told myself it wouldnt matter I would take what ever I got but in the bottom of my heart I trully believed I was going to get ......well I think you know what I mean,cause we didnt get it ,those other people did the ones on tv coming down the airport gangway with a whole slew of family that has been waiting for this day just as bad as you were.I was her only child,I am trying to put this behind me but I think about things like would if she dies how will I know?noone in her life not one person knows of me the 2 other people who did are dead they never new I found her before they died I had there number Should I have called ? ?#2I found my Father about 5 mounths later and a D.N.A. test later and its a girl!!!we were good buds for 2 years it made up for my mother he has been promising me for 3 years that he will tell my brothers and 2 sisters about me.well he didnt and know his wife was almost killed in a car wreck (she knows Before her) and he says its because he doesnt like my hubby and hes buzy with wife before it was 16 year old sisters baby the relationship has cooled much,should I try to keep pleasing himm and have my sibs kept from me or should I tell them their all over 18,he always said he would but something always came up I mtierd of being put off,Help