Originally Posted By
KRISTINE
I AM A CHILD WHO WAS GIVEN UP FOR ADOPTION AT BIRTH BECAUSE I WAS A THE RESULT OF AN AFFAIR. ABOUT 4 YEARS AGO, AFTER A SEARCH I CAME IN CONTACT WITH MY BIRTHFATHER, AND MY SIX HALF SISTERS WHO LIVE 2 HOURS AWAY. WE REUNITED AND THEY ARE WONDERFUL!!!
THE SEARCH ALSO PUT ME IN CONTACT WITH MY BIRTHMOTHER WHO, COME TO FIND OUT, ONLY LIVES DOWN THE STREET FROM ME AND HAS SINCE I WAS BORN. THE PERSON WHO CONDUCTED THE SEARCH GAVE HER MY PHONE NUMBER AND SHE CALLED ME. WE BREIFLY SPOKE, AND RIGHT OFF, I COULD TELL SOMETHING WASN'T RIGHT. SHE SEEMED TO BE MORE CONCERNED WITH THE WELL BEING OF MY BIRTHFATHER THAN SHE WAS WITH ME. SHE MENTIONED THAT IT WAS VERY UPSETTING TO HER THAT I WANTED TO CONTACT HER, AND THAT IT WASN'T GOOD FOR HER SINCE SHE WAS ON MEDICATION FOR AN EMOTIONAL DISORDER. WE SPOKE MAYBE ONE OR TWO MORE TIMES BEFORE SHE STOPPED CALLING. SHE WOULD NEVER TELL ME WHERE SHE LIVED, SHE ALWAYS CALLED FROM A PAYPHONE, AND SHE REFUSED TO MEET ME IN PERSON. THE MORE SHE SPOKE, THE MORE I WOULD CATCH HER LYING TO ME. FOR INSTANCE, SHE'D MENTION THAT I HAD A SISTER NAMED HEATHER MARIE...THEN SHE'D LATER DENY THAT SHE HAD ANY OTHER CHILDREN. HER LAST CALL TO ME WAS AUGUST 1997.
I WOULD BREAK DOWN AND CRY FOR HOURS AFTER EACH OF HER CALLS. I FELT SO ALONE...AND SO REJECTED. I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT SHE WASN'T VERY MENTALLY STABLE, AT ALL...AND THAT IT WAS ACTUALLY A BLESSING THAT SHE STOPPED CALLING ME. IT TOOK SOME TIME, BUT I HAVE FINALLY LEARNED TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BIRTHMOTHER. I CAN'T SAY THAT IT DOESN'T HURT THAT SHE DOESN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME...BECAUSE IT DOES HURT, ALOT, BUT I HAVE REALIZED THAT I AM BETTER OF WITHOUT HER IN MY LIFE.
THANKS FOR LETTING ME SHARE MY STORY WITH YOU. IT'S VERY THEREPEUTIC TO TALK OPENLY ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS. IF ANYONE READ MY STORY AND CAN RELATE TO MY SITUATION, PLEASE SEND ME AN E-MAIL. I'D LOVE TO LISTEN TO YOUR STORY, AND GIVE YOU SOME SUPPORT ON MAKING IT THROUGH THE TOUGH TIMES...
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