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Hi everyone. You have no idea {well maybe you do :-)} just how happy I am to have just found this forum.
14 years ago next week, I placed my son up for adoption at birth. I don't think there has ever been a day that went by that I haven't thought of him. This month is always a very tough one for me and it seems to be getting harder each year. I just feel like I'm a wreck for weeks now.
A little about my story......
I got pregnant and had a son at age 18. I almost put him up for adoption but didn't. 6 months later, I was pregnant again. This time, I did it. I was then 19, about to have 2 babies, still living with my folks, collecting welfare, & had a bum for a boyfriend at the time who couldn't/wouldn't support us. I knew it would be hard enough with 1 child, let alone 2. He & I agreed adoption was the best thing. I don't believe we were ever given an option to have an open adoption so ours was a closed one.
I put myself into some counseling right afterwards, but haven't really talked with anyone who has ever been in my shoes. This is the 1st time I've felt the need to seek others who may understand.
All these years later, I don't regret the decision. My hat goes off to the wonderful people out there who will adopt children.
There's more, I'm sure but this is getting kinda long.
Pretty short though for 14 years in the making. :-)
Take care
Toni
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