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SYNC
Hi Again,
I just got off a night shift and slept abit. I've got to stay awake so as to retrain my day internal clock.
SYNC you say many things and i a, going to pick on one of them ESPIRING AUTHOR TO ESPIRING AUTHER --- use paragraphs, lol.
I find it so hard to read the 'big clump' and find it easier to read smaller paragraphs, they are less intimitating to me (lol but true).
Your b mom story is fantastic, wow moved in with you?? --There's a boundary violation; co sign loans, lend money, wow REDFLAG.
I never said my bMOM was great yet, did I? We have never talked or written , or spoke to one another. Not yet except for a few weeks after i was born.
I do not expect a perfect person. That is why i am furiously studying "boundaries". They keep a person safer and out of situations which could be overwhelming. Do you know about boundaries?
Also do you know about Cumulative Stress? I just was reading something which makes sense. All the stressors add up over time and may last for years. Major ones may never leave. So as time goes by they build up high enought to tear down anyone without the coping skills.
So you also home study your 3 kids, holy ----, so you must know that that may be another sacrifice that will take a chunk off your energy too. But tell me, is it fufilling to see them learn?
It is imposible for you to rain on my parade. When you write it is your parade.
you said >" my goals are to take care of this disorder and put it in order so I can give 100% more to my kids and hubbie. They mean the world to me.
ok here's a thought i had, it is pretty far out there,... where the h.eck are you in this list??? Why doesnt it read >>>my goals are to take care of this disorder and put it in order so I can give 100% more to my kids and hubbie AND SJCNA. They (and SJCNA) mean the world to me. I may be over sensitive but ya gottabe on this list too, don't you??
> "And for my knowing is good enough for me than being labeled as a mental mess (lol) and not even knowing the cause.
huh, whacha sa'en ugain?
Colin
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