At the time of placing my daughter ( 7 years ago) my goals were pretty simple! 6 months... attend college. 1 year, still be going to school. 5 years... I wanted to be working with children! And to this day. I do! My dream has always been since I was a little girl... is to have kids! I love kids! My dream was and is to be a mommy! When I got pregnant at 17, I knew there was no way I could me the mommy I always dreamed! Those goals I set for myself back then.. I have reached! There is still one goal I want to achieve, which is my college degree. But I do work with kids and absolutely love my job! Now I am married (will be 1 year in September) and we look forward to when we have children! It will be planned, and a few years still to come until we venture into that part of our lives. But I am proud birthmother. I still receive pictures 2 times a year. That has and is my confirmation that the decision I made was best for her! Having a beautiful girl in my arms... this perfect baby was the hardest part! Being so close to my dream, and knowing I couldn't take care of her. But I took care of her the best way I knew I could at 17. Placing her with a family I very carefully chose, that would be able to give her things I couldn't! Stability, a mom and a dad... and family surrounding her and loving her! Love doesn't pay for diapers, or feed a baby. Love doesn't pay for clothing, cribs, blankets, toys, bottles. I had all the love in the world to give... but love isn't all a baby needs. I feel whole heartedly like a mom! And every mother's day, I think of her and her adoptive mom and smile! Her adoptive mother is the greatest!
Jenifer
