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I've almost never been the one to end a relationship -- they've usually been ended by the other person. It's just a very difficult thing for me to do, even if it's obvious to both of us that the relationship isn't going anywhere. I tend to put up with much more s**t and abuse than most people ever would, so for me, if I have reached a point where I had to end a relationship, that was an awfully good indicator that things had gotten way past the point of salvaging anything positive.
The bigger challenge for me is trusting people and keeping my heart open to them even after they've let me down. If someone mistreats me even slightly or does anything to violate my trust, I feel like I shut down somewhat to protect myself from being hurt. The reality, though, is that everyone will disappoint you eventually, particularly people you're close to. It's very hard for me to forgive people who have hurt me and allow myself to be vulnerable to them again, but the alternative (never being close to anyone) is even scarier.
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