Brenda,
You're not crazy....because if you are,
I am!
My birthgrandma (deceased since 1992 -- 10 years before I ever even hired my CI) has been "following me around" since I discovered who my birthfamily was. I went to visit my ancestors graves, and I felt her come over me instantly....she's never left me, and was instrumental in me contacting my Aunt Judy! I feel her around me all the time, and it's a wonderful thing! I find a great deal of comfort in it, as a matter of fact.
It's sort of funny that my cousin (who has withheld so many things from me) chose NOT to withhold pictures of our Granny....she ended up giving me a bunch of them recently, and I found it amusing that she said that Granny would have been so happy to know where and who I was! That she would have been relieved to know that I was close all these years, and that Shannon and I went to school together. She said that if she would have known where to find me, she would have made sure to come to me, because she was never at peace with "one of hers" gone.
I didn't want to tell her that I knew that already --- because she is with me now! I will keep that just between me and Granny!
Also, if you remember reading, last Easter, when I visited her grave, I found the little blonde haired, blue eyed, angel statue buried in the ground.....I would never have seen it, had a shepherd's crook, holding a hanging basket, not been hit by the mowing crew, and bent up. When I tried to straighten the crook, the little statue was there, buried under the dirt. It looks amazingly old....as if it had been buried there for years, just waiting for me to find it. It was Easter, and I was feeling SO SAD, because I knew my birthfamily was just down the road, sharing the day together.....and when I pulled the little statue out of the ground, I found her arms wrapped around a little bunny!
I felt like it was a gift for me.
So no, I don't think you are crazy!
Just in tune!
Hugs,
Sally