[vicrose]

Oh yes..."you never know what it going to be like until your in the middle of it"...isn't that the God's honest truth!!!! But, you know what...I have waited all my life to have identity...to be acknowledged...it just feels like such a letdown from my birthmother....excuse me, but I have your blood running through my veins lady...hello!!!!! The human side of us comes out when our birthmother's don't want any contact....we want to know who,what,when,and why...and these birthmother's can't see past themselves to provide us with that....don't get me wrong..if she said she didn't want contact..I'm hurt..but I'm o.k. with that now...but don't deny me my birthfather's name or my siblings!!!! Sally...I have always said that God has a plan...and I truly believe that this is not the end of the line for us...there is going to be more information for us....and even though patience isn't one of my favorite virtues...I guess I'm going to have to be patient in order to live through this mess!!!! Thank God that as adoptees we are a pretty strong group of people....because I don't think that anyone can imagine all the hurt and pain that is put upon some of us!!!! Love, Brenda