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Brenda,
I hope I am not out of line in replying to your thread, as I am a birth mother.
I would first like to say, I can only hope, pray and hold my breath that my baby boy will come and look for me, fall into my waiting arms and recieve all the love I have not had the fortune to lavish on him. I want to tell him, so badly that the reason I gave him up, is because I love him, not the opposite. I had just turned 18 when I had him, had been jumped all over, harrassed and pushed around by people that thought I should abort my unborn child, for me, that was NEVER an option.
I am not saying this very well, all the pent up hopes and dreams, the fear of never knowing if I did the right thing, if I made his life worse or better than it would have been with me. I could not provide him with the basic needs in life.food, shelter, shoes......
My son will be 18 August 25th, 2003, I want him to know that he has an extensive extended family, brothers and grandparents that would love to see him, and know him, before they pass on.
My children...Almost 11 and almost 8, know they have a brother out there somewhere and would like to meet him, too.
I don't know if I should have written this here, but I just want you to know and some of the others that have replied to you, that, YES, there are those of us out here that AWAIT with bated breath for the CHANCE that your birth mother had and rejected. It is TRULY her loss.
Keep your chin up and know that you were CHOSEN, you did not just happen!
Here's hoping,
Brenda
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