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Hi everybody...Let me just say that now that I have had contact with my birthmother and she has stated that she wants no contact...I truly feel blessed for being given up by this woman. In the past few days I've found myself sometimes being a bit upset with her...but no more...I initially contacted her because I just really had to know after 37 years that she was o.k. and was able to move on from the trauma of giving me up for adoption...well, she has moved on and has a husband and 3 other children...this could of been a happy ending..but she never gave me even an instant to say "thank You"...I've waited 37 years to say that to her and she didn't give me the chance.....I've had time to re-evaluate my relationship with my adoptive family...and so you know what..I'd rather try to rebuild a relationship with them...then to cry over my birthmom...I can't shed tears for this woman anymore...my adad e-mailed me just yesterday..and said he loves me..he's always loved me..and he'll never stop loving me...sometimes we search all our lives for love from our families..and then when something like this happens..it's the ones we least expect that would be there...are there!! So, thank you birthmom....my amom is looking out for me from heaven and my adad is giving me the love that I need here on earth...and people say that I should feel bad for her..because she never told her family..and it's all still a secret..well, I will respect her wishes and keep her secret....my intention was never to ruin her familylife that she has worked hard to build...I just wanted her to acknowledge me...but it didn't work out that way...and in a way I do feel sorry for her....but only sorry because she will never know the love that she could of had..........Sincerely, Brenda....