I live in a very conservative city. I have not found any type of support here. I know there must be more than just me out here. Birthmoms are seen as uncaring poeple who don't want to have responcebility. That is there farthest thing from the truth. There is a group for aparents, but how do fit in with the feeling of sadness, they have received the child, not given the child to them. They are 2 totally different veiws on the same topic. My family has been a support but they don't really know how to relate. My auntie knows the joy, for she adopted her son in the 70's. It was closed, so I can only image the pian Jerry's bmom carries with her. I'm looking for anything or any one who knows the raw emotions of being emptie, feeling anger, and yes even resentment. I can say the reason I'm dark and clouded is because, I have made a decision that will last her whole life and I don't get to be a bigger part of it. I'm jelous of the afamily. I know this mybe wrong to feel, but that's how it is.
