[JanetM]

Guys you are right. I'm kinda yelling here because I cannot tell these things directly to the Afather right now which is frustrating. I love my son more than life itself and discovering that I wanted to be a parent only AFTER his birth has been such a life altering event that words can never describe.

I do truly adore my sons parents, particularly his Mom. When we had our visit in February we hugged each other and cried. She told me that she thinks of me every day. She has sent tons of pictures and videos. She told me during that visit that (hopefully hopefully-knock on wood) that when the day comes she would love to come to the hospital with our son to see his new brother or sister. I would never ever do anything ever to harm our son and that includes withholding any information. Right now I guess I'm just at the stage of grieving where I'm dealing with a lot of anger.


Thanks so much for letting me vent. I truly appreciate your insights and you have given me some ideas from where the Afather might be coming from.


Lets just say that Mothers Day weekend will be our first shot at trying for #2-cross your fingers for me.


Peace,



Janet