Hi,
I read your post and was very moved. I am not sure, but have you gotten any pre natal care? You said that you may be 4 months or farther along and that you can feel the baby. If you have not already, please see a doctor. Pre natal care is so important for you and your baby. I can only imgaine that is must be a daily struggle for you. As an adoptee I can only say thank you. There need to be more women like you who decide to give their baby up to a family who can provide a life that you are unable to provide at this time. I have always known I was adopted and my parents have always told me I was special because of that. They have always said positive things about my birthmother and hold her in the highest regard. Afterall, she gave me life. You are doing the same and should be very proud of yourself! My birthmother wrote me a letter explaining the circumstances surrounding her getting pregnant and her decision to give me up. She gave the letter to the agency for me to read when and if I wanted to find her. I did read the letter and was so touched that anyone could be so unselfish. She was afraid that I might hate her for giving me up. But I don't, not in the least. I love her for giving me the life she wanted for me and for giving my parents a chance to have a daughter. I have since met her and we have a wonderful relationship. She is satisfied that what she did was right. You may want to write a letter also. It may help you to make peace with your decision. I think you are a wonderful person! God Bless you and your child. Best wishes....................
_-J
-J
