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(((hugs))) to everyone - it's going to be a tough one. Oceans, I'm right there with you, it does seem harder when you've got the face/name haunting you. I don't expect a call (only because he has a mom and step-mom and it must be hard for him to deal with all of that) but it doesn't make it any easier when the day comes. Raven, my parents and I are in a bit of a bad place at the moment as well so that isn't helping. The change is affecting me as well - I sometimes think men have it soo easy but I'm sure that's not the case.
I get the feeling that bson avoids sending e-mails/cards/calls about 4-5 weeks before mother's day and then I get some contact about a week after. It must be a reallly tough time for him as well so I try not to get too down about it but, as you all know, sometimes these things are out of our control. My other 2 are having a rough time as well, no contact from bson and my eldest is downright angry because she feels he shouldn't have contacted me and asked to meet them unless he was in this for the long term. I tried to explain the push/pull of reunion but it's so hard to understand. I'm even starting to regret telling them all but I know that he was quite pleased that I wasn't hiding anymore and, as tough as it's been, it was a huge relief to step back into the light from the shadows.
I have to spend Sunday moving a friend so I doubt I'll get on line much but I'll be here in spirit thinking of you all and hoping we can all get past the day. At the very least, I am certain that at some point my bson will think of me, even if he isn't able to call.
((((hugs))))
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