[musemoon]

I never tried to get pregnant. The funny thing for me is, I dreamed of being pregnant from the moment I turned 18, EVERYDAY!!!! I dreamed of being pregant, I would put pillows under my nightgown and pretend I was pregnant when I was younger. As the years went on and I hadn't stayed with the men I loved, I started to worry about my chances of having children, then I was diagnosed with a big ol' ovarian tumor and had a messy ouchy C-section to remove a beneign 5lbs mass (which had been growing from the time I was 13 and had teeth and hair...weird...weird!) I decided to foster adopt. Seriously, from the minute my daughter was placed in my arms, I never wanted to be pregnant again. I had one 24 hour crying spell to grieve my "pregnancy" and that was it. After I read Aria's disclosure statements just before adopting her and discovered the horrid life she would have lived (drugs, childhood sex abuse, jail) I was so thrilled that I chose to adopt and am equally thrilled to adopt again!