[winter444]

I ended all contact with my bmom a few months ago, to cut a long story short, I was so emotional and could hardly function, wrote to my bmom and mentioned how upset I was and she got really angry with me, said I was taking her back to a place where she had no self esteem and was ashamed, and in no uncertain terms said I was not considering her feelings, sorry but I can't help it if I was having a breakdown....I just felt the whole thing was all about her, that was it, don't ever mention feelings again so I had to stop it all to just be able to go on.
Anyway, I've just sent a letter to my bfather and all these feelings are coming up again, I'm even dreaming about my bmom even though I honestly don't want contact with her, I was able to go on with my life and never cried again until today. Part of me wants my bfather to want to know me the other part says, who cares....I can't be so hurt all over again, how do we cope with all this???
I know there's probably no clear answer, I just feel I need support for those who understand.
Thanks x x