[RavenSong]

For some reason, I am really struggling this year with Mother's Day. Maybe it's because my hormones are all over the place, with my estrogen levels going up and down like crazy...change of life sucks.

My mom and I are not on speaking terms right now, so that may have something to do with it. My favorite aunt, who is a second mother to me, is dying, and I'm having a horrible time with saying goodbye to her...I don't want to let her go. I just want to curl up in bed and sleep lately, but the hot flashes won't let me.

I don't know if my son will acknowledge me on Mother's Day this year or not. He usually does, but this year may be different. Although we've reconciled, our relationship isn't as close as it once was. I looked thru his childhood photo album last night, and I cried for hours. I think I'm having an anniversary reaction to his bdad's death, too.

Not a good week....