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Dpen6~!!!! THANK YOU! that's what I'm needing to hear.
Some may think it was harsh but its the reality I want. I want the truth. Yes I battle with the thoughts of pushing her, demanding her. Fear her mom is pushing and pulling.. her being torn between families.
I will so much give thought today with your words.
Even if someone screams at me and tells me what I am doing wrong.. I want to hear it..
the praise is good too, but if someone cant give insight, I just wont be able to see...
yesterday I spoke with two more friends and they agree that its strange that she wants nothing to do with us until she is pregnant. They are fearful for me that I will indulge again, only to be hurt or rejected again.
Yes I agree money needs to say out of the picture.
In the beginning I would send gifts that I thought would be thoughtful, photo album so she would know who was who, precious moment figures that seem to be themed on her interests etc. I didn't over flow but just tried to make her feel loved, not bought. Her striking back at me I guess was her way of fighting her own emotions and trying to self defend. And I was in the cross fire. I'm sure she has a right to feel abandoned esp from the conception situation (rape). I hope there is a good future for us. I think we need more communication and openness. I hope as she matures, she will be able to open herself to our family and share her own. She does have good parents.
Rainmon, I appreciate the forewarn... I'm sorry that you was hit with an email that hurt everyone. I'm crossing fingers and toes that I wont have that happen, but if it does, I can't say I wasn't warned. LOL! Its not funny but at times you have to sit back and laugh or lose it.
This weekend was stressful but I have found that confiding in my husband has been a great help. Even when he dont know what to say, just holding my hand on the front porch swing and just being near seems to help.
Again. Thanks again to all...
I'll keep posted on more when I get a chance.
Rose
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