[majicka414]

well, her stepmother and afather asked me over for a bbq next time i'm in NY, which ironically will be the end of this month, so we will meet in person on May 24th.

I mostly spoke to her stepmom, (who is adopted and reunited herself!) as L was checking out pics of me and her bdad. Adad had no idea I had sent amom letters over the years and she had never held up her end of the deal (sending photos). They have been seperated for 12 years. He made me assure him I would never overstep my boundaries, which I never would, I told him from the second I met them, I knew you were her parents. I am just the person who gave birth to her...I told him I dont want her to feel uncomfortable and if she "feels like" she doesn't know what to call me, Im (my name), that's all. I'm here to be her friend and her fountain of info (what little info I have, as I'm adopted as well).

I mean honestly, as awkward as it is for L, it's just as awkward for me. Here is this clone of me (and god is she a clone, same voice, same face...it's SCARY!) that is so much like me, yet I dont know.

Her stepmom and Dad did most of the talking,mostly her stepmom, so I just emailed her privately on facebook (she had requested me as friends) about if she was comfortable with me coming over. I also let her know that if she ever feels uncomfortable about our relationship, tell me and I will back off. If she tells me she's not ready, that's absolutely fine. Like I said her stepmom was the one who really made all the arrangements...I almost feel like she "pushed" for us getting together so I just want to make sure L is on board...after all..it's all about L.

I'm so excited, yet so scared, giddy, thrilled all at the same time...... Now the only thing to make it sweeter is if I would get the same type of call, only from My birthmom!