[bnsheerose]

I am a birthmother who was blessed enough to find a wonderful loving family for my youngest daughter. I never doubted their love for her and I have never regretted choosing them as her new parents. In the beginning, I chose to include them in EVERYTHING. The doctor visits, the ultrasound, her birth, etc. They were scared that I would change my mind. I did everything possible to reassure them that I would not do that to them-I have heard so many horror stories of people doing it! I know that sometimes, I even put reassuring them ahead of my own needs and feelings. I respected them so much! Now, the problem is that we had all discussed what we were going to do-pictures, updates, etc. and now...well, they haven't really stuck true to their word. I have never pushed things on them. I know they do care about us-we have known them for awhile. They have admitted being scared that they would hear that I regretted chosing them, etc. What I am upset about is that I want to ask them how she is, but sometimes I feel I have no right to, but yet I do...etc.... We all live in the same town. Sometimes, I feel borderline betrayed, angry, sad and frustrated...my counselor suggested that I write them, but I am afraid that I will scare them away even further. It tears me up knowing the sacrifices that I made for them, and feeling like I deserve some respect in this! Does anyone have any suggestions as to how I may approach this? We were always on good terms (they were involved with my other kids)
I would much appreciate any input!

-Cat