[Rylee45]

I finally went to my church and talked to my Bishop about things and told him a lot of stuff that happened in my life and what's going on now. He was very sympathetic and understanding about things.

I told him I didn't have insurance to cover counseling and how much I needed it. He has decided after everything I've told him that he is going to pay for me to go to counseling.

I am hoping this person he's sending me to can help me. I don't think his speciality is anything to do with adoption but maybe he can help me with some other issues that are hurting me and causing my life to be so messed up right now.

I figure even if all the counselor is able to do is help me through my anger with my mom and help me learn to control myself in possitive ways or anything that will make life a bit better it's something and better than not doing anything at all about what's going on.

I'm seriously almost ready to have a nervous breakdown. I feel like I'm about to drown and it's not something I want to feel like.

I'm glad that I was able to talk to my bishop. I feel a lot better about some things than I did before I went to talk to him and I'm really glad he wants to help me with the counseling.

I just wanted to let you all know about this. I really hope it helps.

Rylee