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Rylee, I think what you did is completely normal.
I think a part of you is testing yourself, a part of you is punishing yourself.
As someone who's 'been there, done that' (not with my birthchild but an ex), with time you will be able to stop yourself easier, you will always care, but you'll be able to separate yourself a bit.
At least this is my experience!
Hang in there girl!
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