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Things are going great with my brother! He is actually coming to meet me in May - 16 days to be exact. I'm excited. We talk just about everyday, and slowly are coming to terms with what kind of relationship we want. B-mom knows we talk and is not to happy. In fact, she won't speak to either of us. Still can't deal with the secret. Her sister knows and has been a great help to both of us. We have found a lot of information out this past month...apparently there are at least 2 other children she gave up for adoption...one between the two of us, and one who would be the youngest. I don't think I have completely processed the information yet. I thought my search was finally over and I find myself praying that she has not done the same things to these children she has done to me. I know right now she is using me as a scapegoat for her problems with my brother, he's ok with me - it's all the lies and secrets and refusal to face the questions and problems he has a problem with. I would love to question her, but I am waiting, hoping he can repair their relationship first. I feel he has a lot at stake. Even if he doesn't realize it yet. I have a wonderful mom, she is all he has.