Rylee, have you gotten in touch with any of the contacts that I sent to you in a PM?
I think that you need to make every effort to take care of yourself right now. If I remember correctly, you do not have medical insurance...is this correct? If you DO, I would talk to your doctor & find out if he/she can refer you to a counselor, because I think that it would help immensely.
In the meantime, I think that you are doing the right thing by cutting ties [for now] so that you protect yourself emotionally. It's kind of like a break-up, you know? It hurts so much for awhile, and then you transition and begin to adjust, and you find yourself feeling a little better each day. That's my hope for you!
Also - not sure if you're a big reader, but I have been reading
Stress Free For Good by Kenneth R. Pellitier, and I am enjoying it. It has given me a lot of helpful ways to reduce and manage stress because generally I do not do well at ALL when under a lot of stress, and I have trouble coping productively [in my case, I begin a pattern of disordered eating when I feel overwhelmed]. If you are unable to pick it up I am almost finished, and I'd be up for mailing it to you when I'm done if you're interested!!