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Well, my situation is basically this, through talk therapy and medication I have learned that amother is not to ever be trusted again. We had been emotionally abused, borderline physical abuse, but aparents were in very respectable professions so they looked great on paper, very "christian".
I am mourning the fact that the woman who raised me is adament that we (she and I) were not a good match and that every bad thing I did as a child or adult for that matter I do because I want to "get back at her". I don't know what it is I am trying to get back at her about, I just know that she is not nice. I told my therapist that I verbalized to myself that my amom was a "b&%ch" and she suggest she was a "manipulative b&%ch"
That said a lot to me. I feel like I don't have a mom anymore, the one who raised me was very self centered and my bmom and I are still getting to know each other, even after two years and she does not want to know about how sad I feel, and lost and lonely. I think she just can't take it, it hurts her to much.
DSW
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