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Pullback...great for who?
I am angry and sad, my mother who relinquished me stepped back into my life at 18. She didn't tell her immediate family for a year. Thirteen years go by with some bad and some good communication. I was at her home with two of my kids when her 24 year old son passed away from brain cancer in 2005. Its been about three years, she won't return calls and emails. Nothing. Did she really crave reunion? She shuts me, my husband, and my four kids out. Thats our mish mosh... I had hoped for my kids to actively know any grandparents. They have my husbands divorced set of parents, my split mom and dad, and my aparents. All seem lost in their "roll."
We were all in attandance at my sister's wedding in 2004. I heard from my sister in January my mom was hosting my brother's wedding on her property on May 10th. We weren't invited.
I'm getting more emotional about the state of affairs. My birthday is this wednesday and my mom sent my sister a card in february for her birthday. This will be another not acknowledged "my" birthday number three since reunion in 1992. I'm 34 and still crave to be cared about. I have four kids she has forgotten... I've seen recent pictures of her at the bridal shower of my brother's fiance. She celebrates with them. Its great there it seems. I imagine visiting my grandchildren the most i can when I get to be in her shoes. I'm definately not like her at all.
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