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I'm sorry that you're hurting.
Did your biological mother make a verbal promise, or is there legal documentation of some kind that makes your adoption a CLOSED adoption?
I am beginning to come to term with the reality that my biological mother is most likely not searching for me, and she probably never will. I don't like knowing this, of course, but is a step towards moving past a lot of the hurt and trying to heal.
To some, "their word is their bond," you know? A verbal promise is as good as a binding, legal document. I can't imagine that the only statement regarding your adoption was made verbally in the form of a "promise," so I wonder if there was more to it - some kind of signed, legal document regarding the privacy of your biological mother perhaps.
I hope that you can heal - maybe writing is like therapy for you? I keep a journal and I know that writing can often help.
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If we cannot find happiness within ourselves, it does not make much sense to look outwards - Anonymous
PEACE: it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart - Unknown
Never, never, never, never give up - Winston Churchill
Baby girl born 7/25/1984 in Upstate NY.
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