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I was in denial for SO long. I was going to get my period in a day, the next day, the next day. When I finally admitted to myself that I was pregnant, I wanted to die.
Then I was ashamed, I'm a smart, well educated woman, how the heck could this happen to me?
Then I felt like dirt because what kind of person who knows adoption like I do would consider it for her child?
Lots of anger towards my ex for not being supportive and shutting me out of his life (we were together during and for about two years after kiddo's birth.)
I was also angry that I couoldn't enjoy being pregnant. It hurt like heck and I felt I had no right to enjoy it because he wasn't my baby right?
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Just a woman trying to make her way in the world.
First mom to the amazing kiddo and daughter to two amazing moms.
Musings of a Crazed Belle
7-9&10-2008 Mom and I remodel my bedroom. Why can't anything in this house be on the plumb?
7-22-2008 Dad gets a defibulator put in, I'm sure he'll be showing everyone the bump for months, but no fishing for four weeks.
8-5-2008 A month since I talked to B and he hasn't called me back. Why am I not surprised?
8-9-2008 Liz the kitty comes to live with me. Now my house won't be so empty.
8-19-2008 I get contacts again (YAY) my teeth cleaned (YAY) and a cracked tooth repaired (BOO). The cracked tooth is from work, man I love my job.
9-9-2008 My schedule at work goes back to "regular" overnights, thank goodness, I was on my last legs there for a minute or two.
10-4-2008 Visited with Kiddo and his parents. My folks and I met them for a few hours and it was great.
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