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Well, I ordered it, got it, it sat on the table for a week. Finally I started reading.
I'm not done yet (about halfway) but, wow.
J's mom and Roni, you're right. We all relinquished around the same time (ok me in '85) and it is our parents generation.
I remember the relief I felt when the first dr. I saw said 'adoption'. And how I used that to lessen the blow.
'I'm pregnant, don't worry, I'm giving it up for adoption'.
How quickly my parents jumped on that 'forget about it, move on' bandwagon.
All these years they've put it on me 'it was YOUR decision...YOU were SO determined.'(the rare times we've talked about it, and recently).
I'm realising that I was doing what I thought they wanted me to do.
My dad didn't call me a whore or slut then. I sure got the impression he felt a bit that way though. Years later, when I left my second (and mentally abusive)husband and was staying with a male friend while I tried to figure out what to do with my life, he didn't have any problems telling me that what I was doing was 'immoral' and 'possibly illegal'.(re:living with a male friend). Hmm wonder why I have some 'issues' with dad?
Anyway, still reading, definately gaining insight.
Tempted to send it to my mom and dad, but I don't think they'd 'get' it.
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