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I'm a Christian, and an adoptee. I have to give the disclaimer that I'm very comfortable being adopted. While I recognize that it may have caused a few issues in my life, I think EVERYONE has issues, adopted or not.
In Romans, Paul says that God can use everything to his good, and I truly believe that. One of my big issues is control. I like it. When I get in trouble, it's because I've given up trusting God and am trying to do things my way, or in my time. That may not be an issue for you, but something tells me that you've spent a lot of time angry with him and not listening when he tells you what to do.
I spent several months with a Christain Counselor, and that helped me tremendously. (it was marriage counseling) I didn't always like what he had to say, but I needed it.
God doesn't leave us. We leave him. The OT is full of examples of people leaving God, and him taking them back.
There are loans and grants to go to school. I went part time and paid for it myself. So what if it takes you 10 years? That time is going to pass even if you don't go to school. You can greet 2018 as the miserable school teacher, or the guy getting his doctorate. What a great example for your teens too! Not only that education is important no matter your age, but that you are responsible for making your own happiness and choices.
You may even find that going back to school isn't the answer, but simply trying to change will give you some confidence and freedom.
Good luck!
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