On Saturday I went to the post office with my amom and sent off a letter to my bmom. It's taken me almost 10 years to come to the decision that I want some information and depending on how our personalities are able to mesh possibly a friendship.
I sent the letter certified and included my email address and a PO Box address to contact me at. I let her know that I am okay, and that I've had a good life and I don't presume to judge her for making a decision to choose adoption and I feel she tried to make the best decision for us both.
I'm a bit afraid of rejection and I've been told that there's a lot of problems with the extended family so I'm a bit nervous over how this will all go. I'm hoping for the best, but I'm not letting my guard down in case it's the worst.
The most important thing is that I feel a sense of peace now that I've come to this decision to go out and tentatively start a friendship.
I sent the letter certified so in a few days I should have some confirmation that it was received.
