[asauer]

I do believe I'm in the midst of PADS. We brought our son and daughter home a week and a half ago and am for some reason constantly thinking about what a mistake we made, let alone feeling like a mom. I feel like I'm caring for someone else's kids who will never be coming back. I find myself sometimes thinking about how I could 'give them back'...just so I could have my life again, but give them back to who? I really did want this to happen and spent 20 months trying to get them home, but if I'm honest, as soon as we hear we were out of PGN, the panic started and I realized that this is forever and I guess I wasn't prepared for that. I've been going through the motions, feeding, bathing, dressing, playing but my heart really isn't in it. They are having a tough transition but it looks like they're bonding ok. Any ideas what I can do to get through this?