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Jackie, for what it's worth:
(((((((hugs))))) I can so relate. All of my children, raised and bson are living away and I'm feeling the anxiety that you describe. I know they are adults but, still, want to protect them. I too am digging out form 40 cm of snow - AAGGH! However I am leaving tomorrow for the sunny south and hope that in 2 weeks the worst will be over. that old dog - if you love something set it free, if it comes back it is yours, if not, it never was, is so true. I am giving all my kids space and they seem to be responding - some more quickly than others but that darn 4 letter word - patience is driving me crazy but, at the same time, is likely a good thing. As each day goes by it gives me time to reflect and realize that if they want me to be part of their life that doesn't mean that I am their "whole" life. I too speak rarely to my parents. Not because I don't love them but because I know they love me and I have my life to live. How many things on our "to do" list is left over for the next day????
Raven - (((hugs))) to you too. I was fortunate enough to remember every detail of my bson's birth. Although, I have blocked out holding him, spending that first week together before relinquishment but my hubby (bdad) and parents have told me how wonderful I was with him and I think I have blocked it for the last 28 years to make it easier (the brain does protect the body, after fall). Since reunion, I have had snippets of memory flash back but we are all in the same boat. Wishing for a second chance. So far, I think we're doing OK. I didn't get this as a youngster but for me, there can be nothing that anyone could possibly want more than have someone love them. Take care. kate
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