[waiting4myfamily]

I just wondering, how in the world does one keep faith during this whole adoption ordeal? We have been in the process for over 2 years now (just approved for over a year) and I can see no light the the end of the tunnel. I know (but now perhaps I think maybe I just hoped) that another child was out there for us. I have dreams and the Spirit has confirmed to me to be patient. But patience is wearing thin. I find myself wondering if we waited too long - our last child was born 15 years ago and at that time we knew that we could not have any more biological children. I knew we had another child that belonged to us - but I did not see the real signs until much later. I am almost 40 and think that my time is now over. I have questioned the Holy Ghost feeling and have maybe decided it was not the Spirit talking but perhaps just my mind wishing. I feel like our case worker does not really like us too much and maybe thinks we are too old and I frankly do not even know if our profile has been shown.

Sorry, it is just one of those days. Thanks for listening to me whine a bit.

V