I just wanted to say another huge thank you to everyone's advice and support!!!
So....here's the update:
I get to have a visit with A and D the last weekend in March or early April!!!!
Of course I am SO psyched.
The part that of course makes me a little
is that D is so calm and relaxed! I just need to learn how to calm my stupid nerves down!!! She was so open to the visit and suggested we have a few a year, I'm just so happy about this!!!
SO thank you all again!!!!