I am hoping that some of you have had similar experiences and can tell me what happened.
Last night my husband told me he wanted to wait on the adoption. I then proceeded to cry on and off all through the night. I feel like I have just had a miscarriage and am devastated!
I think he is scared of the process of adoption and scared to become a father. I, on the otherhand have a 15-year-old daughter, but this would be his first child. The more excited I, family and friends became over the adoption, he began to talk less and less about it even with me. He even began to withdraw from our relationship in that he wouldn't talk to me and fought about petty immature things. With this behaviour I knew he was scared and struggling and he even told me several times that he was afraid to get excited until we actually had the baby because his heart couldn't handle complications along the way. He told me the reason was that we needed to work on our relationship and that he was afraid this was going to tear us apart, which I believe is not necessarily the deep issue, rather it is his fears of the process and fear of being a father. This man has always been crazy about me and jumps hoops to make me happy, although I don't take advantage of it and I know that when we started this he was ready and we were in this together. He even sidetracked us at one point looking into surrogacy as he entertained thoughts of having our own child.
Can anyone relate please? I'm so heartbroken and depressed! This whole Hague issue may be what pushed him to halt everything. I told him all the "hype" about it the day before he told me this and his reaction was extremely negative.
