[Mrs_Tammy94]

"Seek your redemption elsewhere as you aren't going to get it from me"!!!!

I have had this happen to me from my mom too. Although, we never talk about it those kind of comments hurt like hell. She/I do believe it was the best thing to do because my father was a alcholic and our house was always in a up roar. I had a difficult childhood but I have so much fustration because of my mom not doing something about it. She just went along with it. My father on the other hand wouldn't let me bring the baby home. Since, they have divorced and my mom has passed. I can't get rid of the what if's.....because of the pain of rejection. I also haven't had any contact with my father for 11 years now. None of my brothers and sisters do either.

It took me many years to learn to except the adoption. Now with the search and rejection, it has brought up a lot of feelings that I thought I delt with already years prior.

Where does this bring me? I am not sure. I am trying to sort through things and learn to accept things for what they are.

God has a plan for me and he will not give me more than I can handle. So, I pray! Where is this taking me lord.

Thanks for all your insight Julie! I love it!