[momtosami]

We found out that our homestudy update was put in the mail Friday so we should get it today or Tuesday!! We will get our profile this week and then I can mail applications and get started being shown to birthmom's!! So exciting!

We have not done much to the room, moved my computer to another room and some of Sami's toys are in the room right now. I will have to say the way I am feeling is a little more calm, we did International adoption the first time, long story short we were in adoption mode for almost 5 years with that so it was HARD! I think since I am a mom already it does not seem as bad but there are times when I do get to thinking or anxiety feelings about when to start doing something or what do I need to do for this adoption. I get overwhelmed sometimes with feelings of how to take care of a newborn since Sami was 14 months old when she came home. But all in all I feel like I am a little more calmer this time around. I don't really want to do a whole lot because of Sami, because if something happens I don't want the room ready and such.

Is anyone out there an older Mom? I am 41 and getting a newborn is something that is a tad bit scarey to me being older-heehee. The thing that I worry about most is the sleep-I love my sleep :0