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Julie
I can not tell you how much you have touched me with your words. I have a hard time writing my words down. Although, I am working on it. A social worker made a contact with my bson the day after Christmas. The news wasn't good. Like so many of you bmoms feel. It hurt like hell when he said he doesn't want contact and never will. The rejection hurts like no other. I have noticed myself soaking everything I have into my boys and husband to be perfect so they may not ever feel any kind of rejection. I know this isn't healthy but it is a way to cope. My heart will never be full till he can finally forgive me.
Your words again have touched my heart in a very special way. Thank you
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Many blessings
Tammy
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Mom 1986
Mom 1994,2006
began search 10/2007
rejected 12/2007 
Living One day at a time!
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