[Erin_1712]

well this morning I got a call from the social worker and she said before we go any further I should know all of M's medical history. She started out with the basics. Birth weight, gestation, and then went on that his mother was HIV and HepC positive but he tested negative at birth. I was told he was to be tested again at 18 months and I called his doctor and tracked his records down. He was tested again but before the 18 months so even though all of his test came back negative he could still be postive and that scares me. I mean he has been living in my house for 6 days he has been coming here for months and I have fallen in love with him. I would hate to have to decide our fate because of this test. Also he was to be having regular check up with physical therapist because he had some weakness when he was a baby and those were not followed up on. But we only have 5 days to make our decision. Wether we want to be his legal guardians and have him live here or adopt him or have nothing to do with him. Hopefully our luck is with us and comes back negative for everything I am just worried now. I can ask for an extention but what I would really like to do is become his legal guardian right now. Then after all of his tests are done and the results are good adopt him. Don't think I dont want him if he has disabilities the reason not to adopt if he does is that social services will have to pay for all therapy, mediacal expenses and health coverage which could be expensive. And I would like to know everything before it becomes a problem. But the social worker said that once we go to court in a few weeks we have to adopt or be legal guardians and then no more court that is the way it will be or life. But our case is being given to another social worker today and I will have a long chat with her about what we can do. I thought the emotional rollercoaster was over and we had gotten it all in the open. Boy was I wrong.