Pixie, I completely understand the "not trusting, but trust way too easily" mentality. It sounds like an oxymoron, but I do the same thing. In general, I am very pessimistic and not trusting and a real cynic... but when I face
one person, I just desperately want their love and approval and those defenses go right out the window; I start falling all over myself to please that person. I suppose it's fortunate that I never felt very attractive or desireable and therefore didn't fall back on sex as a way to get approval and love. (I know that people who feel the need to have lots of sex have equally as many issues with self-esteem--if not more--as people who avoid sex.) There's no winning, is there?
Tony, I've PMed you with my thoughts and support. Hope you find it helpful.
BAnn, I've PMed you (quite lengthily, actually) about my long-distance relationship story.
