I don't know that we ever stop crying. Maybe the reason that we cry about other things so easily, if we do, is because we are so-o-o-o on the verge of crying about being adopted the we let it out and pretend it is for something else. I have noticed that since I started my search I have a lot of ups and downs. I actually thought it was hormonal, but maybe it isn't. Maybe it is just my sad heart waiting for the tears of joy when I meet my original family. Maybe it is the tears I want to let out for my search but the strength I thought I had is just crumbling down and the tidal wave is coming. I don't know.
I tell people that I am really ok with being adopted, but I am beginning to think that I have gotten really good at lieing.
We are not alone, we are here together. If families can not be healed by being found, then we will find a new family and fill it with all the people effected by adoption. thank you all for being my family.
